Do you take your art too seriously?
I thought making great music back in my formative years would make me more accepted. I did it for so long that I didn’t know what I was trying to prove anymore. Was I still the person who love making music, or was I just trying to fulfill the rockstar fantasies I had when I was a teenager?
Far too often, we let aspiration get in the way of internal motivation. You might want something because someone else has it, or it looks shiny, but if you don’t really align with it, why waste your time chasing it.
We don’t know why we chase what we chase.
But we have this internal dialogue of “if I achieve, I will be rewarded”.